Cheating by using part of my letter to my mother in law.. easier then typing it twice!

Had a pretty good day yesterday!

I was able to get the kitchen cleaned yesterday and the tv room picked up.. Worked on bathroom for hours and barely put a dent into it.. I'm trying CLR today and seeing if that is going to help. The stains just wont' come ouT! I even bought a black and decker scrubber thingy and it didn't do crap.. I think I"im going to return it. It was rather pathetic.. *L*

I even had a small party last night.. Donny and Justin came to work on their cars and brought their significant others. Abby and I watched House and Law and Order SVU.. Boy svu put me and abby in a tailspin.. we got caught up in it and were crying in the end *L*.. a very pregnant wife of one of the detectives was in a car accident and we thought either she or the baby were going to die.. Thankfully they are fine! *L*

Amelia has learned to blow here nose.. but it's still driving her crazy (the neverending snot) she'll come to me crying for me to fix her nose.. She still calls it bleeding.. exacept when I correcther.. Its' cute :)

children'isms

Amelia with a runny nose

"mommy my nose is bleeding'


Mommy trying to be funny and being shot down by the otherwordly six year old. "I'm funny sometimes right Joel?"

"yes, but today is not one of them"

"it's okay mom we can't be funny all the time"


Amelia at being called a pumkinhead.

"I'm your blueberry not a pumkinhead"

A blueberry?

"yes your blueberry jumping bean rabbit".. Well, that's not a direct quote.it was more like..

"your blueberry rabbit with jumping beans"



Gotta love this motherhood stuff :)

Where have I BEEN????

*L* I havne't posted in awhile; has anyone seen me? I sure haven't. This past week has been very busy and I've been feeling alot better about life in general. Brian was able to get four days off in a row so that was really nice. We had a really good time this week with his time off. WE were around family alot; but not 'too' much! :) Brian did work last night and he works tonight; but, its' not too bad because we were able to have him around so much earlier in the week.

Last week my little boy Joel turned SIX!! That seems so old to me; like a stage is gone from his little life; never to return. He is completely not a preschooler anymore. He is growing up so fast!
It seems like yesterday the little guy was a tiny baby; perfectly shaped little doll with five fingers and five toes. We've had some rough times, but he has a heart of gold like his daddy. If there is ever someone tthat wants me to be happy; its' that little man. He is so aware of my feelings and takes it upon himself to keep me happy. He is the first with a kiss and the first with a hug for his mommy. He gives me so much more then I could possibly give back to him.

We had such a rough toddler time and at times it broke my heart how hard he would fight me on the tiniest things. We continued and we tried; we stayed as consistent as I could be with a new baby in the house and it has paid off. He is usually so easy going; even though he has a strong temper. We try together to keep that temper in check. Anyway, five has been wonderful and I truly expect six to be even better!!!

Joel is my dream. I dreamed ever since I could of having a little boy and I even named HIm Joel way back when I was ten. I have little stories that I found recently of my 'dream' son Joel. He truly is my dream come true. HIp hip hooray for children; for what would we be without them? So I wanted to tell Joel thank you for making my dream come true,

Thank you for teaching me patience
Thank you for helping me with pride.
Thank you for showing me how deeply I am capable of loving.

my poem that i wrote tonight

my poem that I wrote tonight

Everybody gets broke sometimes

We all stand and we all will fall

Everyone falls down sometimes

Its’ hard to see when you’ve lost your prospective

When you’re down on the ground you can’t see your objective

Everybody gets down sometimes

Everybody slips and there is no shame in losing

As long as you climb up from the wreckage

That’s of your choosing

It’s hard to remember that it will all be better

And Jehovah never gives us more then can be handled

We all fall sometimes and sometimes we’re sad

We climb back up one step at a time

It’s hard to see what path to follow,

Its’ good to remember above all else, don’t wallow

In your sadness; for it can be addictive

A heartsick human can seem quite vindictive

Everybody gets broke sometimes,

Everybody falls

You can’t unring a bell and you can’t turn back time

So own up to your loses and endure as a man

Jehovah will give you the power in which to stand

With strength from above you will surely succeed

You can overcome when your close to the ground

Everybody gets broke sometimes

Everybody grows

mia sickie

Yesterday

Joel on a rock
a Kudu
A Joel on a rock
Brian.. I mean a polar bear
Amelia and Jonas
Amelia, Joel, Jonas
Amelia

Some pictures from last week; daddy the cameraman!

Amelia and Joel

Amelia posing in pink for her daddy


My sisterMelissa and Vinnie her three year old

Weather is nicer!

Joel in his daddys' boots circa 2004
I woke up today and the weather was in the higher fifties and it felt so nice! No thirties for us anymore :) I think I'll take my kids to the park today after I get the dishes done. I worked on the tv room last night when Brian was at work; he hasn't seen it yet, but I think he'll be happy about it. get the kitchen done too and voila! happy husband! Well, ic an't stay on here cause I have to work work work; have a nice day everybody!

Amazing

Ok, so you might have noticed from my last couple of posts that i've been feeling a little down. I am out of anti depressants; which i did get a few more today so hopefully i'll be doing a little better. Thanks for anyone that was worried about me; I really appreciate people caring.

Sometimes a kind word can be like honey.. well actually a kind word any time is like that; but a kind word in need.. well, thats' just beautiful and I really appreciate it. I get so 'into' my children that sometimes I put things that are also important on the backburner. I need to be more balanced and less crazy! Thanks for such friendly reminders.

School of hard knocks

I believe I have been enrolled in this school for all my of life. It is an interesting education; I am not sure how or when I signed up for this extensive school program; I am not sure how to unenroll either. I do know that I wouldn't want it any other way; then it would not have been my life. The school of hard knocks is a tough one; some people give up at the school of hard knocks and some people keep fighting. Some like me perhaps; give up, find the world is still moving on and they are staying still so they get back up again and then keep fighting. I am not that interested in staying enrolled at this school however, but I don't know who to inform of my desire to leave. So, this is my official resignation of the school of hard knocks. Please let those in charge hear of my leaving this fine establishment.

Sincerely,

Jessica

Lonely

I am so lonely in my life. I know it seems like I shouldn't be.. I have my sisters and my religion, my children and my husband. My life is full; I mean it couldnt' be fuller; but somedays what i wouldn't give for a day or a evening with my husband. It is amazing how lonely you can get for someone and see them everyday. I love my children and I love being with them; but I miss talking to my husband and having 'us' time. Perhaps that is selfish, maybe.. I still feel that way though. I went out with my sisters' and mom the other night while Brian watched the kids and all I could think was 'i wish it was brian with me and my sisters or mom watching my kids' . It is hard to ask them to do that though; they all work and they are all tired in the evening. Sometimes I think even Brian would rather hang out with his brother in laws then a night with me. I just dont' feel worthy to make such a big deal of it. When my mother in law would come from Ohio it was okay because I know she really like spending time with them and I know she would call if she needed me and she'd watch them at my house which set my mind at ease too; but since she can't come visit anymore because of monetary troubles, I am lonely. Okay, enough soul wretching :) on with your daily program

speaking of grandmas

This is a picure of my grandmother. My dads' mom..

Grandparents' day

At joels' school; it was grandparents' day.. I was so worried that my mom wouldn't come; but she did come and they made magnets. One for grandma and one for grandma in ohio; that couldnt' be there. Joel was so proud that his grandma came; I guess one child didn't have her grandma come and she cried so mom was glad she made it too. *L* I wish I could have seen pictures; but moms' cameras' battery was dead.

I have Vinnie today; I think he wants soup because he has said ' i want soup' ten times in two minutes *L*

Remember when I used to talkabout things besides how cold i was?

That was a long time ago; back when I wasn't cold. I just don't have much to say when I'm cold I guess. We did go to meeting last night and the kids fell asleep. When do you stop letting your kids sleep through the meeting? I have a friend that wakes up her three year old if he falls alseep. Thats' great for her; but if my three year old falls asleep I say thank you to Jehovah and listen intently to the meeting. Voila! No fidgeting, fighting, dropping things, whispering too loudly and mommy finds out there is an actual meeting going on past the sounds her three year old makes! :) j/k

I have Jonas today and I think we'll take a stop to Ellicia's work and have pizza for lunch. I know i know; but I do love to get out of this freezing house! :) and into a freezing car.. yay@! I have to pick up Joel from school in about a half hour so I better get ready

too cold to write

It has gotten too cold to write; I am cold this very minute and seem to continue in this coldness. It is colder downstairs then it is up; because we used to have a fireplace stove in the middle and we had to get rid of it because of home owners insurance so now I'm just cold.

This morning when i was getting Joel up for school he asked me if he could homeschool. I was so happy for him to ask! I told him that we need to talk to daddy about it. When Brian came home from work he asked his dad and bri said that we'd talk about it this afternoon. weee! Anywho, my little guy is off at school right now and my little miss sunshine has not yet woke up from her deep slumber so I have a few minutes of peace; even though it is cold peace. :)

Okay so maybe the Colts didn't win

but really Hoosiers; it's not the end of the world. SO maybe just maybe the patriots are better then us.. just a little. Maybe Manning was just not on his game today. Really, the game itself is not going to determine who's in the SuperBowl of course! Also, keep in mind that the colts only lost by four points.. So, maybe this will be their only loss. Cheer up Indiana!

responsible

I am a parent; I have two little kids. One of those children I entrust to a imperfect school system at this time. I am afraid for this child in this school system; I afraid of the things that arebeing taught in my absence. I afraid for my child; his fears that go unnoticed, his tears unwiped without his mother nearby. I fear for my sons' safety at school; I do not like the many beliefs that are rampant and taught; although perhaps not outright at my childs' school. I do not like that a frustrated child is treated as a 'bad' child; it is flawed system in a flawed system of things. I am sad at this. I am an avid homeschooling mother; ahem.. my husband at this time is not. He is not against homeschool; he just wants there to be a reason to switch him; he wants him to try p.s first. So we are trying and some days/weeks are actually very trying. Instead of sitting my son down (or not) and practing our writing, or spelling; or just thinking skills; just me and him. Instead he goes to class of 22 children; all at five or six unruly at times trying to be taught to a teacher that gets tired (who wouldn't?) mgiht have a bad day (again; who wouldn't?) I am just saying at best the teacher probably has seven solid minutes a day with my child in actively teaching. I myself can give him two hours of solidly teaching and then a trip to a park etc. So you can see that teaching is somethign that anyone can do and a parent can do so much good, just because they are their childs' advocate.

It is very hard to sit on the sidelines of five year old when he is at school; trying to be your childs' advocate, but made to feel foolish in trying to be a 'part' of the classroom. It seems to be a rock and a hard place.


On the other hand Romans 5: 3,4

3 And not only that, but let us exult while in tribulations, since we know that tribulation produces endurance;
4 endurance, in turn, an approved condition; the approved condition, in turn, hope


so perhaps.. we do need tribulation to endure; or at least learn how to endure? Perhaps p.s. is a stepping stone we must pass to learn how to endure. maybe without p.s. a child would be ill equipped as an adult? but, can't we teach them to endure as we are teaching them so many other things? can we teach them to endure out in the field ministry? ahh.. some things for me think of..

can't we all just get along?

I get so tired of people not getting along and fighting. From the three year olds fussing over a toy to grown women wanting to be the best of the best. Its' exhausting; and it's unloving. I am so worn out by the tug of war of living and i wish there wasn't such a tug. I think.. and I know this is utopian of me; but I think that at the end of the day; when all things are said and done all we have is Jehovah and kindness. Kindness shown to thers; kindness shown to ourselves. Kindness from other people to us. If the world was a kinder place; it would be so nice. I tire of ridicule and jealousy. I am wary of discontent. So today think of a kind thing that you did for another person. Think of a cold thing that was said to another person. Hopefully your kindnesses far outweigh the hurt. At the end of the day thats' what we all hope.. I hope :)

Another baby

There is another blessing in my vast family! My little sister Ellicia is also pregnant! She is married to my sister Abbys' husbands ' brother.. Ellicia is married to Justin and ABby is married to donny and they are both pregnant; isn't that cute? Double cousins! Anyways, this is Ellicias' first one and its' going to be so amazing.. I' m really happy for her. As I am for Abby of course. I love them both dearly.

pictures for the month of Oct.

Overheard on Joels show on Showtime 'kindergarten'

'Boys are different, Girls are very very very different'

And girls are a little like aliens

'girls are like pick one up put it in the right place, pick one up put it in the right place; and boys are like AHHHH'

'boys are usually sticky'

I agree completely :)

Spongebob

Spongebob is the stupidest show on television today; my children are watching it right now and it is really really dumb.. If this generation is going to win the prize for dumbest generation yet it will be owed to the glory that is Spongebob. (after writing this I turned off the offending show)

bubble

Sometimes, esp when I watch an upsetting show on tv; sometimes, I wish that I really could put my children in a bubble. A nice safe, unpopable bubble. I could call for groceries, ebay for clothes and other needs and perhaps my kids would actually be safe.

I just watched 'Criminal Minds' and a little girl was kidnapped and it was really upsetting. So maybe a bubble would be the best place for them; but i know that we can't really put them in a bubble; they have to experience life and make good decisions or they would be helpless in their adult years. I can choose what experiences I allow them to have. I can protect them for they are a wonderful blessing.

Everyday is a winding road

Today has been pretty good to me so far. I hung out with Brian all morning, started another load of dishes, watched I spy with Mia; picked up Joel from school :) Then we went to play at the playland. It wasn't too crowded so I didn't feel overwhelmed which is always a good thing .. Right now I am procrastinating getting my tv room reorganized and cleaned again. GRR.. it just never ends; don'tcha know? Hopefully won't wear myself out too much and will make meeting this evening!

Things I did Mon

• Picked up Joel from school
• Did dishes with Mia
• Got Joel off to school
• Watched 'I Spy' with my little girl
• picked up tv room
• do bible study

Sent off the kid; back to school for him

I'm missing him already; I hope hes' having fun. We did do most of the homework that was sent with him when he started his break. He is such a smart kid; he has started to label his drawings. Yesterday at the meeting he had a picture on both sides of the notebook; one was labeled 'Evl' and one was labeled 'God' (good) and he had pictures of what he thought both were. It was cute. He also made a rocketship and labeled that 'rckshp'.. he is really figuring out this writing and reading thing.. I am so proud of him :)

Amelia and her daddy went out last night to see Jonas (watch Steelers lose) about a half an hour after they left Joel came to me in quite a panic; 'mommy wheres' Mia? I can't find her anywhere!"

So it is good to know that if Joel was watching her he wouldn't let her out of his sight.. well at least he'd check on her every half hour! *L*

things I did Wednesday

• woke up!
• Helped Joel to make kool aid by himself
• Goal; finish the laundry
• went grocery shopping; got worn out
  

Maybe I could run on no sleep.. hmm.. just maybe

Perhaps I could live without sleep. I really should try this; I could get everything that needs to be done if Id idn't have to sleep! I could play with my kids and get my house clean and just get everything done; it would be great! If only I didnt' need to sleep I could do this. Maybe they'll invent a pill that will rejuvenate your body without sleep.

But wait! I love sleep.. I love to lay down and not wake up for hours; it is so nice to snuggle into the comforter and my little one inch of memory foam mattress topper.

So I guess the pill idea won't work.

Maybe Jehovah would add some more hours to do the day! That could work right?

Hmm.. or maybe I'll have to take away something else to get all I need to do done. :(

Amelia's Babydoll

Amelia has a baby doll that has been in a lot of trouble today. I thought you should all know to keep an eye out on any Raggedy Ann dolls you have in your house. Apparently they do not obey at all and must get mulitple spankings. Also they have been known to not sit for ten minutes when Amelia tells 'her' to. if she doens't sit .. you guessed it! another spanking! It is quite evident that Raggedy Ann does NOT understand no matter how many times Amelia asks her if .. 'you unnerstan?" *L* I know.. we all have rough days sometimes, but Raggedy Ann (if I would havebeen in charge) should have gone to bed for her many misdemeanors.

Things I did Tuesday

Things I did Tuesday

• went to the childrens' musuem
• made some kefir that actually tasted decent! I know how now ! ask me about it!
• Picked up toys in tv room
• hopefully going to the meeting
• went to meeting
• went to abbys' house
• watched 'we are marshall' very good movie

Tired tired

I woke up tired today; I woke up already tired; that's not a good sign is it? How can one 'wake up' TIRED? You are supposed to wake up refreshed! Ready to go!.. not tired :( Perhaps I will take a nap this afternoon; but even though I am tired the fight must go on! Today I am tackling one room. Today I will tackle the tv room and be done with it.. well, not really. Your never DONE with it.. You fix it; you make it beautiful and then the children look around.. I can only guess what goes on in a little ones mind.

Wow, mom cleaned the tv room; it loooks soo nice! Too nice almos tlike she doesn't have children! OH NO! she doesnt' want kids or the house wouldn't look so nice! Oh boy, I need to get some stuff in there quick before she remembers how it was before she had kids! What do I have on hand? Dolls, bears, train tracks always make a nice crunchy mess. Ahh, thats' better! I think my bucket of legoes would go perfect there.. yes... perfection! (goes to the next room)


anyway, that would be my guess about what goes on in their minds *L*

things I did Monday

Things I did today

• Woke up and did dishes
• Fed the kids a healthy breakfast
• Picked up toys in tv room
• going to abby's house to go to the park
• watched the game
• watched a little bit of star wars with the fam

Well, the childrens' musuem with Brian was.. well, Joel wasn't happy because he lost some kind of pencil so he yelled all the way home. Hes' five for goodness sakes; he never does that! Its' difficult because of Brians' schedule working nights he wants us up with him when hes' home; Thats' one nice thing about Joel being in school; I have to get them to bed early; but last night Brian wanted to watch Star wars with Joel and kept him up late; I know that is the problem.

However, one neat thing about the childrens' museum was the robotics' exhibit. Bri and Joel were in there for at least an hour! It was really neat to watch them 'connect' ..

Well, anyways..

trying to get some energy to make it to the meeting!

off to the childrens' muesuem!

Brian, me and the kids.. that's like called a family outing isn't it? WOW! *L*

Sunday went like this

Things I did today

• Folded laundry
• Got the kids ready for the meeting
• Went to the meeting
• worked on laundry room; emptied one container
• found another load of laundry to do
• organized bedroom some

Things I did yesterday

• I did four loads of laundry
• I yelled at my kids..
• I also played a game with the same kids
• I watched deal or no deal from my dvr
• Did more laundry
• Danced with my kids
• studied the wathtower
• went to bed at a reasonable time
  

Thoughts about parents

I am watching this movie tonight called 'the thing about my folks' with that mad about you' guy.. I forget his name; I know Peter Falk is the 'dad'. Anyway its about a man and his dad on an adventure basically; and this man getting to know his dad not just as his dad; but, as another man; as a friend. Also, this guy reminded me of grandfather actually. I really miss my grandpa... He died when Joel was just crawling; but he had a stroke for a long time before that. I really wish I could have known him as an adult person and he could have known me too.

He really was quite a man.. my grandpa not Peter Falk. Anyway, I am also thinking of years from now; my kids looking at me; thinking, was this old woman really really ever young? Truly? I will tell them as my mother tells me; ' I am not old, nor am I planning on becoming so in the future' :)

I hope paradise will be here by then though; then I really can be young forever and see my grandpa again to boot!

anyway,

thats' my thought for the day

here i am again

Nothing donig here; I wwas with my sisters' a bit last night; we went to a movie with the kids and then abby and i went to target. I really have got to get my butt in gear and I think I found a really neat site to help with that. chorebuster.net .. is so cool.. you have got to try it out ok?

The kids and I also played with Google Earth last night. If you haven't done this with your kids you really should; because we found our house with it; then 'drove' to Joels' school; then on to grandmas'.. it was quite an adventure without leaving the house!

my mom and dad got a new fridge the other day and the installation guy broke the ice cube maker so they have to wait to get it fixed; but its' very nice.. They somehow fit a sidebyside in their little space; and it has .. or will have ice and water coming out too; I wonder if it has a lock? .. hmm.. *L* thinking of children and their busy little hands.

Abby bought Jonas a little 'Candyland' game. He wasn't 'getting' it yet though!.. well, I am off to do laundry!

no title comes to mind

I haven't been getting enough sleep lately; I don't know what my deal is. IT is hard to go to sleep alone; I never imagined third shift would be so hard; I miss Brian when hes' at work at night. I know that he would have probably not been there anyway; but I still miss him and I've always hated going to bed alone. Silly huh? Esp since really I am never alone with my little 'rascals' everywhere I go.

I've been listening to Billie Holiday lately ; I found her through my friend Kassandras' blog. You have to be invited so nah nah nah .. :) Anyway, I have found Billie very soothing and calming. I think in my old age I have to find soothing things, calming my nerves and heart. Plus I am a big fan of piano music; also the sax.

I got to talk to my mother in law ; hence forth known as 'Betty' {not her real name; ok maybe it is} well, chat with her. It is always a pleasure to talk to her; I wish I could see her in real life; I miss her.

I wish everyone in my life could get along. I would love for all my sisters' to be happy and joyful. Appreciate the help that they 'do' get and just enjoy this fleeting time with their families. I guess I am not always like this; because as much as I try to enjoy my family; I can honestly say there are time when i DON'T!.. I get overwhelmed or tired; perhaps a little girl that will remain unnamed yelled all day, or just whined and whined. So I get tired; I get discouraged; then I miss a meeting that would have encouraged me; so now I'm discouraged and feel miserable for missing the meeting. Ah.. life.. I can't win. well, not without Jehovahs' help.

I have Jonas today while little pregnant Abby cleans two houses. Hes' such a little guy; he can hardly do any wrong in this aunts' eyes *grin* He always seems so small; and his yell isn't as loud as Amelias'; that yell curdles milk I'll tell ya!

Oh yeah, has any of you seen my Micro Zen mp3 player? My darling husband took the headphones off of it to listen to his movie without disturbing the kids awhile ago and I don't know what happened to it! I am willing to offer a reward.. nudge nudge.

Whistle while we work

We went to the park today; it was pretty fun.. IT was pretty much a perfect day! Yesterday we hung out as a family . today . not very inspired today; but maybe I will be tomorrow.. after all.. tomorrow is Wednesday; and whats' not inspiring about that?

Time marches on

These truly are the most precious of days. My children are messy, yelling, little tykes (speaking mostly of my three year old), but they are also sweet, kind, funny, appreciative, and they happen to think I am the best thing since sliced bread. Not too bad for the ego if I must say so myself.. (at it appears I must *L*) I am on a better track these days and even if everything doesnt' get done; I don't feel so 'crazy' as of late; it's probably my medicine working or something, but it is still nice to be able to enjoy my children and my life sometimes even my husband.

I have Jonas today because it is Abby and Donnys' 7th year anniversary so they went downtown to a hotel; I hope they are enjoying each other. This next year is going to be alittle nuts for them with the baby; even though shes' going to get alot of help! (I know I will be) :)

Lukas also turned six yesterday.. I can't believe the boys are turning six already; it is so hard to believe.. They are functioning, thinking, reasoning people.. It feels sometimes like I am watching a miracle. I feel that way just being a parent sometimes. That if I am quiet I can almost hear the miracle of my children. Watching them grow and learn to think and watch their own growth spiritually; it truly feels miraculous and I am so blessed to be a part of their miracle.

Sorry if I am being mushy; I just am so happy to be here at this time right now. I feel sorry for people that can't be at this place with their family; working too hard or worrying too much. I have a great affection for this place in my life and I hope that I dont' forget it as time marches forward.

Learned from the best :)

I now have music on my site; please feel free to .. uhmm.. mute it if you want, but hey ; I love music and I can express myself a little bit with it. Change my mood.. etc..

The picnic was very nice. I still wish that I felt like I fit in a little bit. Perhaps it is not that I dont' fit in; its' that I am so busy with my children that I don't have a moment to stop and talk; or.. I don't take a minute to stop and talk. I don't know.. its' kind of confusing. I do feel relieved sometimes when a child needs me when someoen comes to talk to me.. I think I am just shy. I really wish I wasn't. I wasn't shy when I was a little kid; it is something that has 'happened' to me. Maybe if I build some confidence I won't be shy anymore; ohh please who am I kidding. I am adult; I can not just hide behind the 'I am shy' I am too old for that. I have to just decide to make a friend and then just do it. It's harder then it looks..

Pictures

Here I am today; today we will explore for a few minutes the ideas of pictures. Some children never get their picture taken in childhood. Do those parents' just not care as much? Do they parents' that instead of taking pictures of their children take pictures of the nature or surroundings; is that whay they are prioritizing? I take a lot of pictures of my children. Well, they are my world and my thoughts are mostly all on them; what else would I take pictures of? In thirty years am I goingt o look back at a tiger at the zoo or at a picture of little Amelia at two? Whats' going to matter to me? To Brian? To anyone? I think that what we take pictures of; is who we are. I think that a parent should DELIGHT in their children and the things they do and who they are. Are you delighting in your children? Am I delighting in my children? Everyday I ask myself that; often not out loud.. but I do ask myself if I am delighting in my little ones' today? Am I enjoying day 90 of Amelias' third year of life? She will never be this age again; she will be a new age tomorrow. Am I enjoying this day with her? With Joel? It is so easy to get caught up doing everything right that we forget that the things that we can do right is by out children. Delight. Let us all delight in the little things :)

quote from my son Joel after being told not to be so demanding "I am too demanding sometimes mommy, if I get like that tell me so I can remember to ask nicely"

Isn't he growing up to a polite little guy? :)

Add a kid; spin around; hope my world won't go upsidedown

I am to watch my neighbors' little girl today from noon to midnight or more. I am a little nervous because we are going to a congregation get-together today. Is this little girl going to be good? Is she not going to get lost? Only time will tell :) I have mentioned her in my posts' before; shes' the same age as Mia and her name is Aleah; (sp?) but mommy calls her Leah so I do too. Mia and her get along really well so that will be nice. I am not used to seeing Mia play with a girl; theres' so many little boys in her life with all those cousins.

I want to ask the mom what I should do if she throws a fit. Different kids are different that way; I hope it goes ok at the picnic.

Beyond that, today is living room day. Immediately after getting off of here I am going to go to my living room and clean it and make it purdy. :)

Brian is off this weekend so I'll have him to contend with. I hope he stays happy at the picnic; I know he wants to play disc golf sometime which will be just fine with me. He loves to play that so much and it puts him in such a great mood.

Did I mention that my little girl has been weaned for a month? I am completely done with nursing. It is nice; but kind of sad; I have nursed for six years STRAIGHT! I even nursed when Joel when I was pregnant with Amelia . That's quite awhile, I wonder if that is why I have had the 'baby bug' lately. It helps with Abby being preg so that I can plan with her baby. She finds out the 24th if its' going to be a girl or another stinky boy *smile* Shes' hoping for a girl since Donny says she can't have anymore after this one.

Anyway; I am off toclean. so.. have a great day!

Today

Today I have alot to do so I have to write quickly so I can get my work done. I am going to take my kids to see Ratatooie (not right spellingI know; but I don't care enough to look it up) I have to clean the upstairs also. I also want to visit my grandmother later today. Perhaps Michelles' new baby (and Michelle *L*) will be there.

My discussion of ER today is quite short; it is interesting that they are making the new chief of med. more 'human'. THey made him alot nicer last night and he even made a few jokes. I really like the bit with the surgeon that likes Neela and Abby dealing with the young couple with the baby. It brought up an interesting idea that you just can't trust anybody. When the young woman was sent away in handcuffs as the elevator door closed; her eyes were so angry and whereas she had looked so sweet before; she looked like a criminal as the door shut. Ah well, I wondered if they were going go 'that' way with the storyline. Speaking of storylines; I had almost forgotten several from last year. Jesse from Full House looked as handsome as ever :) He is having trouble with custody of his 'kinda' daughter. Also I wonder if they are pulling for Dr. Kovack to stay in Croatia? Abby will be heartsick :(

Now, on to CSI.. I really loved the part with Grissom and Sara talkign the the boss about how long they had had their relationship.. The way the look at each other.. It is soo sweet :) I almost wander if they are in love in real life (although I'm pretty sure they aren't) but it just looks so real.. I love to get into stories because I like to pretend they are real. (although the horrid things that happen on CSI; I hope that part isnt' real) When that head rolled down the highway in the beginning.. that was.. I thought that was what it was; but it still freaked me out a little *L* I was glad that my kids werent' watching that part!

That is the end of the two shows I tell you about. Have a good day!

The demands of the day do not allow for personal squeamishness, nor will they tolerate the holding of breath;

This may be my personal mantra for each day as I awake.

A day of kids; again.. *yawn*

Last night we had the meeting..We have the theocratic ministry school on Tues and book study on Thurs. Brian and were both able to go and the kids were really good. We sat by my dad and my dad was really sweet with the children. After we went to the meeting I talked Brian into going to Meijers and getting icecream. I enjoy so much watching my little ones pick out things; and watching them in public..w el anywhere, but for some reason particularly in public makes me just so proud to have such a wonderful family and such beautiful children.. I just feel so blessed. I was just enjoying 'my family' so much; but Brian was getting frustrated; we all wanted different icecream, the children broke soemthing(not their fault; someone left something glass in the middle of the aisle) I wish he could see how blessed he is too.

Anyway, I love my family. :)

Today I ended up helping my mom with Mels' kids. Shes' going to be working at a bank instead of as a waitress ; so this might be her last week on Wed. We don't know what her schedule will be when she starts at the bank. She will get to be right in the middle of downtown on the 'circle' which I think shes' pretty excited about.

We had a pretty good time. My mom had made chocolate chip cookies and when I brought Ellicia back from work she got bead and strings out to make necklaces with and the kids played with that all day. I got to use the sewing machine too. I got most of the pieces for a quilt I am making, I made a dinasour pillow for Luke, and I made a little dress for Mia.

Later my mom and I worked on a pesto. Thats' basil, almonds (or some kind of nut) olive oil, salt, together in a blender. then she used the pesto as a base for her pizza sauce.. It was soo good!.. It was a really good pizza and I HELPED *L*

Melissa came home from work around nine and she took me and the kids hoem since Brian was already at work in our 'one' car.. *sigh*.. Anyway.. now I am taking iteasy until Bedtime.. although we should already be in bed.. Have a good night!

no notes yet; went to zoo and now we have to get ready for the meeting. but heres' a picture

I made it through our special assembly day.. whew

What a long day! My five year old acted like a three year old and my three year old stayed par for the course. There was fidgeting, whispering, slight fighting. we had tomato staking in the bathroom with me making them stand against the wall for minutes with a paddle in one hand. *L* but we made it through and I got something out of it even. That all this hard work that we have with our kids is worth it. That we do have to keep trying and trying and someday they will say.. or at least Jehovah will say 'Job well done'..

Btw during the song; when your five year old starts singing 'blah blah blah' *really* really loud. You don't really get struck by lightening; in case anyone was wondering. I think its' time to teach him to read.

oh well, another day.. another day.. have a good one all

My lovely little helping pumpkins

My kids out of the blue just informed me

"mommy, we are cleaning up the living room so you don't have to do it"

Then they were picking up and cleaning for about ten minutes. They are such good children sometimes.

of course then it started Joel "Mom, Mia isn't helping as much as me"

Mia "yes I am"

Joel "she doesn't like helping like I like helping'

Mia "I am helping right now" "Mommy, Joels' being mean to me"

oh well, they were good for a minute

Now Mia has come back in here and shes' cleaning up ; Joel isn't in here though so I guess Mia won? *L*

This is a video of Joel yesterday morning. and my pregnant sis complaining; sorry i don't know how to edit videos

Beautiful day; what to do what to do?

I could

clean the tv room

clean the bathroom

read with the computer the rest of Genesis

enjoy the beautiful day with my wonderful children

watch tv



Choices, choices choices.. :)

I should clean one room and then go outside with my kids. Ok, that's what I'm going to do with the rest of my day. Thanks for the pep talk :)

Neato neato

This is so cool. If you have the bible on audio on your computer you can use this free program http://bbalet.free.fr/LiveBibleReading/download_0_2_0.html and it will read it to you and at the same time the bible chaper is there on your computer and it highlights the part that its' reading to you. It is such a nice way to get your bible reading done.. I am almost done with Genesis and I've learned alot. If you have any questions about setting it up please ask me and I'll do my best to help you since I just set it up myself.

ER and CSI : Don't read if you havent' watched!!!!!!! Spoilers *L*

The above picture is of my son Joel and his cousin Jonas doing the dishes. He is my great little helper .

I have a dvr and.. ohh ER was pretty good last night; I was really worried about Neela (well, not really, but I love a good story) :) but I think she's going to make it. It kind of droned on and on some without a real story behind it, but perhaps that is just to get some background for the next story. I think ER has done that alot before.

Now CSI on the other hand.. I was so sure that Sara was going to be found dead. Then we she finally opens her eyes and see Grissom.. Ohh.. how sweet. :) I think Grissom looks alot older then he did last season? What do you think?

I have Without a Trace on dvr, but I haven't watched it yet. I really like that show too, but Cold Case is just about my favorite of 'that' type of show. The music on there is always so dramatic.



On a much more spiritual note, I have the bible on audio and it is just so nice.. I cleaned the living room yesterday and had the proverbs going. It was so encouraging to me. It really kept me going and I enjoyed cleaning even. I kept thinking to myself when I heard more scriptures "Yep, that is sooo true" Anyway, it was really nice and I am even listening to it right now.

Amelia is awake, but Joel isn't yet. We are on Fall break right now so Joel doesn't have to go back to school until Oct. 22 .. Our school is 'year round'.. which means nine weeks on; three weeks off; except for summer where you get five weeks off. I think..

Amelia has all of her little stuffed 'babies' in a row thats about ten feet long and shes' in the process of getting pretend food at the feet of every baby. It's kind of cute; I think shes' practicing to either have 'alot' of children or a cafeteria worker at a instutition of some kind. :)

Thats' all for now :)

another note about my table. It also has a section that goes in there to make the table bigger and it has another chair too, but my kitchen is small :( I want to make everything white and then stencil or paint cherries and make my kitchen 'cherries' :) I think that will be fun. but my husband never lets me just do stuff on my own and I have to wait on him! *pout* :)

Jessies' new table :)

Heres' my new table! Now.. I still have to paint it and paint the bench with it.. but I am just so happy with a quality piece of furniture.. and I like how it's an octagon. :) here it is!

I 'found' my table today!

I found the neatest table at goodwill... i wish i had taken a picture of it.. it is eight sided? I think.. and has a take out middle part to it and it has three chairs and it's painted white.. it is so .. so perfect for me.. i don't know how i'll convince bri that its' perfect though.. what i want to do is keep the corner bench for one side and put the chairs around on the toher side.. and you know paint the bench part white too; all of this for fifty bucks if.. if it is still there when we try to get it tomorrow

my dear little daughter is irritating me tonight.. all voer me and messing things up. I have to get more 'on top' with her.. because she will be very willfull if mommy isn't stopping it. :)

busy weekend :)

On Saturday we were invited to our friends' house for a 'kids' get together there was like twenty kids there and it went really well. Then we went to Abby house and there were like sven people I didn't know and I had a blast.. ohh.. they were really loud.. I just sat back and listened.. it was funny... Then yesterday we had meeting and went out to eat and then to Melissa's house .. so.. busy busy busy!

Mia played with another little girl her age that was also named Mia at Abbys' house.. it was so cute!! The other Mia did everything my Mia did.. including climbing all over me. Everyone said I was 'mothe goose' in the flesh the way the children always clamor on me :)

Tired ;

Joel had some trouble at school lately that has been frustrating; just some common not paying attention and I think his bus driver doesn't like him so I am going to pick him up everyday now. I would have been anyway, but he loves the riding the bus so much.. Thank you so much for your comment Kassandra it is so nice to have a friend like you :)

I was invited to a friends house tomorrow at three so I am feeling a little better about the whole thing which is a good thing. I hope that I dont' freeze up with all those women, but am just friendly and interested in what they say.

I am feeling better today, but I did not get enough sleep last night; I believe it was because the kids went to sleep and I was just happy to get some time on my own last night. ALso Brian has been having to work for a guy at his work thats' sick so hes' done like 6 twelve hour shifts this week! Hes' getting tired too.

Anyway, I hope you hve a wonderful weekend :)

Insomnia and a cold

Just so you know; probably I never will never get better *L* I have had stomach flu, and colds on top of colds. Right now I have a cold, but I know it is only because I couldn't sleep *at all* for two days straight; I was trying to get back on my right meds (anti dep and sleeping) and it got a little messed up the last few weeks. I didnt' have the sleeping one and I took the anti dep at night for two nights and I looked like this when my husband came home from work Sunday morning. He made me go to bed ( i think he was a little scared) *L* So I slept from noon to five and then to bed at nine and I think I'm caught up again. I was just so.. nervous. tapping and being intense.. I am glad I am feeling more normal today

Of pizza and detergent

I guess my mil can't come to Indy this weekend with my sisters' abbys' mil :( I was actually looking forward to seeing her again. We have been doing okay lately. I have been trying to up on my bible reading and am seeing an improvement already. With my littles' sick I have been getting depressed lately; I wish that home school was an option because it sure does keep the germies away. The children are feeling better though ; they both woke up feeling just great so I am glad for that.

Brian just came back from Sams' club with some kind of meat, landry detergent, dishwasher detergent, and a pizza for lunch :)

yay for hubbies!

Have a good day :)

Children are sick again

I really don't think I can handle public school; my kiddoes have been sick so much this month and it's only the first month :( now they have this awful cough, sore throat, and scratchy voices with a fever. I had to miss the co tonight because they couldn't go ; they are coughing so much it's ridiculous *L* I am having a pity party for myself today cause sometimes nothin' feels right.

Ok, tomorrow I am going to finish cleaning the kitchen . I have stated a goal and i will fullfill it; that's how youfeel better right? *L*

Ok so I will try this and try not arguing with my husband tomorrow. He gets tired and I am 'short' with him.. argh.. sorry for griping on a blog.. silly me :)

have a good day tomorrow all!

I don't even know why I am typing ; I am going to go back on effexor because w/o it all I do is act angry and upset

Went to meeting COUGH COUGH

Apparently my children are sick. they coughed every minute of the meeting and ran their snotty noses all over me. I was so embarrassed because we sat next to a friend of ours that just had a baby last week and here I was with two sick kiddoes.. GRRR..

My cousin had her baby this morning Ainsley Alivia Lacey eight lbs 2 oz.

Hooray for new babies !!!!

i have forgotten to post

Hello there and good afternoon! I now and the proud owner of 'dish network satellite tv' i can watch any show I want and hbo and something else is free for three months. You probably won't be seeing anymore of me because I'll be watching my 'shows'.. erghh.. I mean I'll be 'cleaning'.. yeaaaah.. cleaning! *grin* anyway, I want to thank my delight dear husband for letting me have tv back and I promise to take care of it and love it and feed it take it on walks.

Also on another note; our Circuit Overseer is going to be there tonight. He is new and I am excited. It is always exciting when we get a new one. Brian can't make it because of work :( I think I am going to take the recorder and make him the talk though because I am such an awesome wife and I would hate for him to miss any 'neato smeato' spiritual information.

I really really want to go out in service tomorrow. I am going to have Jonas, but that's not really a deterrent because hes' a pretty good like blondie. I am just going to buckle down and get r done. or try :)

anyway, now Joel my dear has a bit of a cold.. coughing and sneezing :( hes' laying in his bed watching diego from his new (old) tv! yay! my poor little sick'em that never gets well..

Good thing hes' cute or I'd have to send for another.

Jess

camping is wet

If you have never been camping when it is pouring out; you are in for a real treat for this very thing happened to me this weekend. Friday we packed and left and had a pretty good time Fri evening and Sat. On Sat. we went to the beach and played in the water; Mia and Jonas stayed on the beach part for about two hours ; they never moved; just pouring and dumping, dumping and pouring. Joel wandered around with his super hero sounds while my mom and I talked. When we came back Amelia was feeling hot so we put her in the tent to rest; Brian fell asleep but Mia didn't *L* So Brian stayed asleep most of the day and on thru even when it started raining. It started raining around 3pm and it didn't stop until Sunday morning at six am! well, it stopped for a few minutes in between; but youget the idea! The problem with rain and feeling wet and soggy is that people get short tempered and cranky, water is spilling on you from the tarp, people become more annoying and smores are a sad sad joke; I put the children in the car with a movie and we adults played gin rummy and it got a little better then; but Abby and I were tired so off to bed with us. The others stayed up later and played an elec. game; I forget what its' called. This morning we basiclly got up and started packing and here we are. Brian has been sleeping since we came back; I have done two loads of laundry, dishes, cleaned and dried the tarp that the tent was on, played with the children, put mia to sleep, took a nap and a bath. *not at the same time* now it's about 6:30; I have to get Joels' stuff together for school tomorrow.
Have a pleasant evening!

jessie

it's a new day :)

Today is going to be another doozy; well maybe not; I do have to get camping supplies together, I do have Jonas until three, I am going camping this weekend. I hope it doesnt' rain the whole time! Apparently only one person out there reads my blog so to that person I will say I hope you have a great weekend too :)

Tired so short

Busy day with my sister Abby; shopping for pants for Joel, went to meeting, watched half of football. have Jonas for the night; .. let's go to sleep :)

wedding pictures

New pics of Karens' Wedding!

Childrens' Musuem

Abby had her ultrasound today and I got to watch baby 'Ruggles' swimming around in 'it's' mommys' tummy. Jonas is very proud and says "watch my baby Jessie" and Amelia wanted to Abby to know " If you let me hold the baby I won't drop 'em; I'll be really careful" Joel wanted to know more specifics "How big is the baby now?" Is it a boy or a girl" etc. :) Afterwards we went to the Childrens' Museum and had a pretty good time ; we were only there for about three hours. We went to the glass blown exhibit, the aquarium area with the fish outfits and video camera for the kids to 'swim' , through the eygptian cave, we saw a planetarium show on 'star wars' , the we went upstairs to 'playscape' . Immediately there was story time with brown bear and what do you see; the children all partcipated wonderfully :) Then it was off to put sand in their hair! The last even of the day was the carousel ; although they only wanted to go on that once. Then it was off home again. When I got the car back to Bri ; the kids were both asleep and they haven't woken up yet at almost 8 pm! It is nice to have the evening to myself though :)

Adieu

Sick sic Lukie

Poor little Lukas K. sick as dog and twice as cute I hope my little Luke will feel better soon.

I watched Luke today and he was sick. His mommy came and got him and I hope he feels better soon.

I let the other kids play on the 'slip and slide' alhtough there was more slipping and less sliding; they still had a pretty goodtime. Meanwhile we woke Bri up from his sleep and the Brian came and watched Luke inside while I watched the other three outside until Mel came back from work . Shes' taking Luke to med check; I hope hes' feeling better soon.

Mia is complaining now.. "momma, I am very sick even the town is sick momma" *L* silly three year old. Ciao

I am only writing this because I am procastinating

I need to clean the tv room. I am procastinating. I don't want to clean it. I will.. I will.. but.. of course I need to 'blog' first right? Of course right!

I havne't done much today. I talked to some neighbors.. These poor people have four kids and they are living in a tent .. I let the man mow my grass for 25 bucks.. and I gave them about eight outdoors toys.. Three bikes, a climbing toy, a little rocking toy.. I am so glad that my husband has a good job and takes care of us.. We are so fortunate. I love my husband and I love how he takes care of us.. I love him so much I am getting off of this time waster and CLEANING THE TV ROOM!!!

I really am.. well,, maybe you guys want to see a picture first?

OH okay.. heres' a pic!

no pics yet ; but..

Yes my littles' were in a wedding and yes they were soo cute. I was very honored that Karen wanted my children in the wedding and I think it went really well. The rehearsal on Fri night was very very long and Rabbit was getting tired towards the end; the dinner was really squished. Sat we were up bright and early and when we made it to the hall; immediately a giant cupcake dress was thrust upon poor unsuspecting Rabbit! Her hair was done up in a pony tail with curls and a tiara. The dress was a little big; sizes are difficult; esp if the people picking out the dress dont' see the child very much, but she still looked very sweet in it.

Chicken was wearing his black suit with a bright pink big boy tie. They seemed to have alot of trouble staying still before the wedding; but when the wedding started they were as good as gold! Mia held her bros' hand and in her other hand was her little flower basket; they stopped at the right spot for the pics then continued to where I was sitting and at first Joel sat where the maid of honor was to sit; but I moved him down one. *L* Then the beautiful bride came down the aisle just as radiant as a bride can be. She looked so happy and excited.. poor unsuspecting soul.. j/k!

They had the wedding talk and the speaker made a mess of things because he had accidently burned his talk! He forgot the prayer, the kiss, fumbled alot of the rest. but it was good anyway. :)

After the wedding part was over I was with the 'wedding party' because of the kids and Amelia didn't want to walk anymore so i had to pick her up and walk up the aisle. She then turned pretty stubborn so we couldnt' get the pics with Karen.

The wedding reception was just beautiful. I don't think it could have been any prettier! There were lights and music and a huge dance floor.. It was just perfect and the whole day really couldnt' have been better. I am glad that it was so nice. :)

The whole weekend was pretty nice although I can't remember much. I was pretty tired... I know we went to the Ruggles and saw my mom and Jonas, Ellica and Justin.. I know that El and Justin are looking to move back to Jackson so they can have a baby *NOT IN THE CITY*.. That's all I can remember for now :0