Lonely

I am so lonely in my life. I know it seems like I shouldn't be.. I have my sisters and my religion, my children and my husband. My life is full; I mean it couldnt' be fuller; but somedays what i wouldn't give for a day or a evening with my husband. It is amazing how lonely you can get for someone and see them everyday. I love my children and I love being with them; but I miss talking to my husband and having 'us' time. Perhaps that is selfish, maybe.. I still feel that way though. I went out with my sisters' and mom the other night while Brian watched the kids and all I could think was 'i wish it was brian with me and my sisters or mom watching my kids' . It is hard to ask them to do that though; they all work and they are all tired in the evening. Sometimes I think even Brian would rather hang out with his brother in laws then a night with me. I just dont' feel worthy to make such a big deal of it. When my mother in law would come from Ohio it was okay because I know she really like spending time with them and I know she would call if she needed me and she'd watch them at my house which set my mind at ease too; but since she can't come visit anymore because of monetary troubles, I am lonely. Okay, enough soul wretching :) on with your daily program