Hello!

I don't know why he acted so cold.. it was a hot day.. I think he was just tired
we still like this bus driver at this time.. now he doesn't ride the afternoon bus
busy at home.. work
First day of school!
Visiting school day before school starts


Amelia on her horse
Joelie the cowboy
Even cowpokes need to stop for lunch
Is there polar bear coming out yet?
Bestest friends

Amelia .. in disguise

I found some pictures that I don't think I have had up here yet.. It was from when Joel first started school in early August and a trip to the zoo.

kids~!

Amelia came to me

"mommy, Jonas thinks I hurt him"

Well what happened?

Well I didn't hurt him though..

Okay so tellme what happened?

I didn't hurt him exactly...

Well, what exactly happened?

It was an accident

Jonas comes downstairs crying

What happened jonas?

Mia hurt me!

Was it on purpose or accident?

Accident



*L* kids!

Cheating by using part of my letter to my mother in law.. easier then typing it twice!

Had a pretty good day yesterday!

I was able to get the kitchen cleaned yesterday and the tv room picked up.. Worked on bathroom for hours and barely put a dent into it.. I'm trying CLR today and seeing if that is going to help. The stains just wont' come ouT! I even bought a black and decker scrubber thingy and it didn't do crap.. I think I"im going to return it. It was rather pathetic.. *L*

I even had a small party last night.. Donny and Justin came to work on their cars and brought their significant others. Abby and I watched House and Law and Order SVU.. Boy svu put me and abby in a tailspin.. we got caught up in it and were crying in the end *L*.. a very pregnant wife of one of the detectives was in a car accident and we thought either she or the baby were going to die.. Thankfully they are fine! *L*

Amelia has learned to blow here nose.. but it's still driving her crazy (the neverending snot) she'll come to me crying for me to fix her nose.. She still calls it bleeding.. exacept when I correcther.. Its' cute :)

children'isms

Amelia with a runny nose

"mommy my nose is bleeding'


Mommy trying to be funny and being shot down by the otherwordly six year old. "I'm funny sometimes right Joel?"

"yes, but today is not one of them"

"it's okay mom we can't be funny all the time"


Amelia at being called a pumkinhead.

"I'm your blueberry not a pumkinhead"

A blueberry?

"yes your blueberry jumping bean rabbit".. Well, that's not a direct quote.it was more like..

"your blueberry rabbit with jumping beans"



Gotta love this motherhood stuff :)

Where have I BEEN????

*L* I havne't posted in awhile; has anyone seen me? I sure haven't. This past week has been very busy and I've been feeling alot better about life in general. Brian was able to get four days off in a row so that was really nice. We had a really good time this week with his time off. WE were around family alot; but not 'too' much! :) Brian did work last night and he works tonight; but, its' not too bad because we were able to have him around so much earlier in the week.

Last week my little boy Joel turned SIX!! That seems so old to me; like a stage is gone from his little life; never to return. He is completely not a preschooler anymore. He is growing up so fast!
It seems like yesterday the little guy was a tiny baby; perfectly shaped little doll with five fingers and five toes. We've had some rough times, but he has a heart of gold like his daddy. If there is ever someone tthat wants me to be happy; its' that little man. He is so aware of my feelings and takes it upon himself to keep me happy. He is the first with a kiss and the first with a hug for his mommy. He gives me so much more then I could possibly give back to him.

We had such a rough toddler time and at times it broke my heart how hard he would fight me on the tiniest things. We continued and we tried; we stayed as consistent as I could be with a new baby in the house and it has paid off. He is usually so easy going; even though he has a strong temper. We try together to keep that temper in check. Anyway, five has been wonderful and I truly expect six to be even better!!!

Joel is my dream. I dreamed ever since I could of having a little boy and I even named HIm Joel way back when I was ten. I have little stories that I found recently of my 'dream' son Joel. He truly is my dream come true. HIp hip hooray for children; for what would we be without them? So I wanted to tell Joel thank you for making my dream come true,

Thank you for teaching me patience
Thank you for helping me with pride.
Thank you for showing me how deeply I am capable of loving.

my poem that i wrote tonight

my poem that I wrote tonight

Everybody gets broke sometimes

We all stand and we all will fall

Everyone falls down sometimes

Its’ hard to see when you’ve lost your prospective

When you’re down on the ground you can’t see your objective

Everybody gets down sometimes

Everybody slips and there is no shame in losing

As long as you climb up from the wreckage

That’s of your choosing

It’s hard to remember that it will all be better

And Jehovah never gives us more then can be handled

We all fall sometimes and sometimes we’re sad

We climb back up one step at a time

It’s hard to see what path to follow,

Its’ good to remember above all else, don’t wallow

In your sadness; for it can be addictive

A heartsick human can seem quite vindictive

Everybody gets broke sometimes,

Everybody falls

You can’t unring a bell and you can’t turn back time

So own up to your loses and endure as a man

Jehovah will give you the power in which to stand

With strength from above you will surely succeed

You can overcome when your close to the ground

Everybody gets broke sometimes

Everybody grows

mia sickie

Yesterday

Joel on a rock
a Kudu
A Joel on a rock
Brian.. I mean a polar bear
Amelia and Jonas
Amelia, Joel, Jonas
Amelia

Some pictures from last week; daddy the cameraman!

Amelia and Joel

Amelia posing in pink for her daddy


My sisterMelissa and Vinnie her three year old

Weather is nicer!

Joel in his daddys' boots circa 2004
I woke up today and the weather was in the higher fifties and it felt so nice! No thirties for us anymore :) I think I'll take my kids to the park today after I get the dishes done. I worked on the tv room last night when Brian was at work; he hasn't seen it yet, but I think he'll be happy about it. get the kitchen done too and voila! happy husband! Well, ic an't stay on here cause I have to work work work; have a nice day everybody!

Amazing

Ok, so you might have noticed from my last couple of posts that i've been feeling a little down. I am out of anti depressants; which i did get a few more today so hopefully i'll be doing a little better. Thanks for anyone that was worried about me; I really appreciate people caring.

Sometimes a kind word can be like honey.. well actually a kind word any time is like that; but a kind word in need.. well, thats' just beautiful and I really appreciate it. I get so 'into' my children that sometimes I put things that are also important on the backburner. I need to be more balanced and less crazy! Thanks for such friendly reminders.

School of hard knocks

I believe I have been enrolled in this school for all my of life. It is an interesting education; I am not sure how or when I signed up for this extensive school program; I am not sure how to unenroll either. I do know that I wouldn't want it any other way; then it would not have been my life. The school of hard knocks is a tough one; some people give up at the school of hard knocks and some people keep fighting. Some like me perhaps; give up, find the world is still moving on and they are staying still so they get back up again and then keep fighting. I am not that interested in staying enrolled at this school however, but I don't know who to inform of my desire to leave. So, this is my official resignation of the school of hard knocks. Please let those in charge hear of my leaving this fine establishment.

Sincerely,

Jessica

Lonely

I am so lonely in my life. I know it seems like I shouldn't be.. I have my sisters and my religion, my children and my husband. My life is full; I mean it couldnt' be fuller; but somedays what i wouldn't give for a day or a evening with my husband. It is amazing how lonely you can get for someone and see them everyday. I love my children and I love being with them; but I miss talking to my husband and having 'us' time. Perhaps that is selfish, maybe.. I still feel that way though. I went out with my sisters' and mom the other night while Brian watched the kids and all I could think was 'i wish it was brian with me and my sisters or mom watching my kids' . It is hard to ask them to do that though; they all work and they are all tired in the evening. Sometimes I think even Brian would rather hang out with his brother in laws then a night with me. I just dont' feel worthy to make such a big deal of it. When my mother in law would come from Ohio it was okay because I know she really like spending time with them and I know she would call if she needed me and she'd watch them at my house which set my mind at ease too; but since she can't come visit anymore because of monetary troubles, I am lonely. Okay, enough soul wretching :) on with your daily program

speaking of grandmas

This is a picure of my grandmother. My dads' mom..

Grandparents' day

At joels' school; it was grandparents' day.. I was so worried that my mom wouldn't come; but she did come and they made magnets. One for grandma and one for grandma in ohio; that couldnt' be there. Joel was so proud that his grandma came; I guess one child didn't have her grandma come and she cried so mom was glad she made it too. *L* I wish I could have seen pictures; but moms' cameras' battery was dead.

I have Vinnie today; I think he wants soup because he has said ' i want soup' ten times in two minutes *L*

Remember when I used to talkabout things besides how cold i was?

That was a long time ago; back when I wasn't cold. I just don't have much to say when I'm cold I guess. We did go to meeting last night and the kids fell asleep. When do you stop letting your kids sleep through the meeting? I have a friend that wakes up her three year old if he falls alseep. Thats' great for her; but if my three year old falls asleep I say thank you to Jehovah and listen intently to the meeting. Voila! No fidgeting, fighting, dropping things, whispering too loudly and mommy finds out there is an actual meeting going on past the sounds her three year old makes! :) j/k

I have Jonas today and I think we'll take a stop to Ellicia's work and have pizza for lunch. I know i know; but I do love to get out of this freezing house! :) and into a freezing car.. yay@! I have to pick up Joel from school in about a half hour so I better get ready

too cold to write

It has gotten too cold to write; I am cold this very minute and seem to continue in this coldness. It is colder downstairs then it is up; because we used to have a fireplace stove in the middle and we had to get rid of it because of home owners insurance so now I'm just cold.

This morning when i was getting Joel up for school he asked me if he could homeschool. I was so happy for him to ask! I told him that we need to talk to daddy about it. When Brian came home from work he asked his dad and bri said that we'd talk about it this afternoon. weee! Anywho, my little guy is off at school right now and my little miss sunshine has not yet woke up from her deep slumber so I have a few minutes of peace; even though it is cold peace. :)

Okay so maybe the Colts didn't win

but really Hoosiers; it's not the end of the world. SO maybe just maybe the patriots are better then us.. just a little. Maybe Manning was just not on his game today. Really, the game itself is not going to determine who's in the SuperBowl of course! Also, keep in mind that the colts only lost by four points.. So, maybe this will be their only loss. Cheer up Indiana!

responsible

I am a parent; I have two little kids. One of those children I entrust to a imperfect school system at this time. I am afraid for this child in this school system; I afraid of the things that arebeing taught in my absence. I afraid for my child; his fears that go unnoticed, his tears unwiped without his mother nearby. I fear for my sons' safety at school; I do not like the many beliefs that are rampant and taught; although perhaps not outright at my childs' school. I do not like that a frustrated child is treated as a 'bad' child; it is flawed system in a flawed system of things. I am sad at this. I am an avid homeschooling mother; ahem.. my husband at this time is not. He is not against homeschool; he just wants there to be a reason to switch him; he wants him to try p.s first. So we are trying and some days/weeks are actually very trying. Instead of sitting my son down (or not) and practing our writing, or spelling; or just thinking skills; just me and him. Instead he goes to class of 22 children; all at five or six unruly at times trying to be taught to a teacher that gets tired (who wouldn't?) mgiht have a bad day (again; who wouldn't?) I am just saying at best the teacher probably has seven solid minutes a day with my child in actively teaching. I myself can give him two hours of solidly teaching and then a trip to a park etc. So you can see that teaching is somethign that anyone can do and a parent can do so much good, just because they are their childs' advocate.

It is very hard to sit on the sidelines of five year old when he is at school; trying to be your childs' advocate, but made to feel foolish in trying to be a 'part' of the classroom. It seems to be a rock and a hard place.


On the other hand Romans 5: 3,4

3 And not only that, but let us exult while in tribulations, since we know that tribulation produces endurance;
4 endurance, in turn, an approved condition; the approved condition, in turn, hope


so perhaps.. we do need tribulation to endure; or at least learn how to endure? Perhaps p.s. is a stepping stone we must pass to learn how to endure. maybe without p.s. a child would be ill equipped as an adult? but, can't we teach them to endure as we are teaching them so many other things? can we teach them to endure out in the field ministry? ahh.. some things for me think of..