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I haven't been getting enough sleep lately; I don't know what my deal is. IT is hard to go to sleep alone; I never imagined third shift would be so hard; I miss Brian when hes' at work at night. I know that he would have probably not been there anyway; but I still miss him and I've always hated going to bed alone. Silly huh? Esp since really I am never alone with my little 'rascals' everywhere I go.

I've been listening to Billie Holiday lately ; I found her through my friend Kassandras' blog. You have to be invited so nah nah nah .. :) Anyway, I have found Billie very soothing and calming. I think in my old age I have to find soothing things, calming my nerves and heart. Plus I am a big fan of piano music; also the sax.

I got to talk to my mother in law ; hence forth known as 'Betty' {not her real name; ok maybe it is} well, chat with her. It is always a pleasure to talk to her; I wish I could see her in real life; I miss her.

I wish everyone in my life could get along. I would love for all my sisters' to be happy and joyful. Appreciate the help that they 'do' get and just enjoy this fleeting time with their families. I guess I am not always like this; because as much as I try to enjoy my family; I can honestly say there are time when i DON'T!.. I get overwhelmed or tired; perhaps a little girl that will remain unnamed yelled all day, or just whined and whined. So I get tired; I get discouraged; then I miss a meeting that would have encouraged me; so now I'm discouraged and feel miserable for missing the meeting. Ah.. life.. I can't win. well, not without Jehovahs' help.

I have Jonas today while little pregnant Abby cleans two houses. Hes' such a little guy; he can hardly do any wrong in this aunts' eyes *grin* He always seems so small; and his yell isn't as loud as Amelias'; that yell curdles milk I'll tell ya!

Oh yeah, has any of you seen my Micro Zen mp3 player? My darling husband took the headphones off of it to listen to his movie without disturbing the kids awhile ago and I don't know what happened to it! I am willing to offer a reward.. nudge nudge.