I love babies. I remember when Ellicia was a baby; this small dainty little thing and I fell in love right then with babies and I have never outgrown it. :) I was a kid of course and as such was more concerned with my own self, but I remember trying to teach Ellicia how to walk and holding her everyhwere I went. Which must have looked funny considering I was such a skinny 7-8 year old. I thought she was the cats' pajamas. Then Barbara came when I was ten and oh wow. This baby was so sweet. She hardly ever cried and we just adored her. I truly did carry this girl all the time. Even on trails when she was big enough to be walking. I could never say no to her. I still can't come to think of it. When she started talking we were all spellbound by her and the funny things she said. So serious, but so cute. but, alas she grew older so I assume I must have been 'baby' hunting when I found Danny.. or rather my sister Abby found Danny. The first time I saw Danny he was laying on his moms' waterbed. He must have been about three months old; but he looked like a brand new born. He was so small and sweet. I was 19 and was already getting the 'mother' bug so he was a great respite that I could enjoy a baby without actually getting married too young and having my own I rocked him and held him and I watched him grow everyday. I was in love once again :) then his parent's started having trouble and they fought alot. So they had me keep him overnight. THen I asked for him overnight. I wanted him all the time and they gave him to me so much because of their own troubles. I enjoyed being with him and he was an absolute delight. Well, hes' gone.. He is 12 years old this week. I know that I couldn't recognize him now. Ellicia's gone too.. She is in Ohio; but she might as well be on another planet. I don't know if I will ever see her. Barbara is gone too in a way; although I do see her.. I don't see 'her'.. I see someone else that she has become and I know that children grow up. I see it everday in my sisters'. So, maybe thats' why we cosleep, perhaps that is why I homeschool. I know already that this time is so fleeting and so quickly over. It is a wonderful time; but it can also be stressful. So I have to remind myself to just enjoy them and teach them. I wouldn't miss out on this for anything.