Thinking of someone else

I always feel like I have to think of someone else; or many someone elses' before I can make any decision. I believe that this is a good thing to think of someone else, but soemtimes I wish that I could just think of me.

For instance, I would love to go to the Indy Air Show.. airplanes flying around amzing stuff. My dad is taking my husband and young son; but as usual I am left out again. I am not complaining. .. well, I guess I am. I really do want to go; but money is tight this week and I know its' more important to Brian then it is to me. So I'll stay home.. Of course, don't I always? Ok.. sorry that was the bitterness from last post creeping in.

Another instance, my husband got these colts tickets and I love the colts; but low and behold when he asked if I wanted to go with him . I told him 'no honey you go ahead and take your buddy with ya' why did I do that? Just because I knew Bri would enjoy Donnys' company at a football game more then mine? Why can't I say the selfish thing and say 'sure give me the ticket see ya later'.. I always have to think about everyone else.. GRRR>> *L*

I really don't mind; it makes me feel good to knwo that others' are happy and its' not their fault that they don't think of me in the same mind. That is not totally giving if your expecting ANYTHING in return and I really am trying to be a 'joyful giver'

I guess thats' what this post is about; being a joyful giver. Cause there is no point in it otherwise. If you can't be joyful in your giving it isn't really really giving. So heres' to me 'Mrs. Joyful Giver 2007'

Loves yas