i think that the years are passing so quickly by.. I might be lost in the sifting sands What if I can't find my way out in the end?

Time time time; beating on my head; I wanted time to pass so quickly as a child. I wanted to be old enough to scare the fears away,laugh at the ones that were hurting me. I wanted to be big enough not to break anymore. I wanted to be mature enough to have a love and a child of my own. I have those wonderful things and I am as happy as a clam. Now time is moving faster and now I want it to slow down; but, I can hardly catch my breath to yell for it. My babies are children now; I am almost afraid to turn around as they might have turned into adults!

I wish I had now; some of that time that was spent so recklessly. I wish that I could have been more secure in my own body. I wish that I had been home schooled. I think if i had had a couple of years to build my confidence; I might have been able to 'take on' more.

I am glad that I have the time that I have though. I love living. I wish the world wasnt' such an ugly place beyond Jehovah's Organization. I can't wait till paradise!